Dear Mom.......... sad

Dear Mom.......  I'm just so sad today.  I don't even know why but I am.  I'm also very afraid of what's going on with my back again.  I'm having symptoms much like this time last year when I ended up in hospital for 6 weeks and couldn't walk.  Our family Dr put in a requisition for a back surgeon at Mount Sinai but has heard nothing back yet and it's been months.  Scares me that I'll end up in St. Mike's again.  These health issues are all getting too much for me.  I wish you were here for me to talk to :-(  I love you ma... and I miss you so much.