Dear Mom......... Merry Christmas :-)

Dear Mom......  Merry Christmas Mom!  ((((Hugs))))  Our first Christmas not together.  It's way too quiet in here and way too lonely.  No gifts.  It was difficult to not keep buying little things I saw while out.  I think maybe that was the hardest.  All the decorations in the stores and outside and on homes..  there was no forgetting for a moment it was Christmas and you weren't here to celebrate with me.  No presents for you.  No watching you smile so big when you opened even the smallest of gifts.  Yesterday I paid Mel to put up a few of the hanging decorations.  It just seemed way too empty in here with nothing up.  Took a lot to refrain from decorating your room this year.  I'm so used to doing it all up for you so you could enjoy the decorations all through the season.  Of course no one in our family offered to do it for us (me).  One would think I would be used to that.  Mel has been paid to do it for us for more years than not. 

I have one little tiny tree lol  Your friend Gertrude and her granddaughter gave it to me at the seniors Christmas Event this year!  It's cute, you would love it.  Clear plastic tree that shines different colours.  I'm sure they picked it up at the $ store but that doesn't matter.  It brings me a bit of joy and that's all that counts. 

You wouldn't believe the weather either.  Yesterday it was 63 degrees F !!!  Yes!  It's freakin weird.  I would have taken you out for a nice walk yesterday for at least an hour in nothing more than your thick sweater.  You would have loved it!  It's been really unseasonably warm ma.  The dogs are loving it :-)  They get up every morning eager to go out.  I open the door and there's no cold air!  It's Christmas morning and it's 45 degree's out there.  Imagine that!

I love you Mom.  And Christmas will never ever be the same for me.  Just another lonely day.  I'm going to Karen's for dinner later this afternoon and that will be nice.  Lisa and Noah will be there and I have gifts for Noah and little Robbie (Karen's grandchildren).  I'll put up a good front and I will have a good time and glad I can spend some time with those I consider my family.

(((hugs)))) mom.........  big time.