Dear Mom......

I miss you like you would never believe.  You died in June, it's now November.  Your birthday was such a struggle for me.  I didn't even want to get out of bed.  You were on my mind literally all day and night and my birthday wasn't any better.  After all my life celebrating our birthdays together it was heart wrenching.  I remembered how you would call me into your room and when I asked you what you wanted you would throw your arms as wide open as you could and you would grin from ear to ear.  All you wanted was a hug.  I would give anything for one of your hugs.