Dear Mom... frustrated

Dear Mom...   I'm having such a frustrating day today.  Nothing is going right and the group is driving me crazy.  Last night I made a huge decision and I'm going to return the funding I got for the next 3 trips for the seniors group because it's just too much work for me and they really couldn't give a shit.  Every time I set up a trip they say they want they back out at the last minute costing us a lot of money.  The trip to Cambridge cost me a bus I didn't need.. $700.00 !  so many decided at the last minute not to come.  Then there is this trip, to the ripley's aquarium.  I started with 30 that absolutely wanted to go..  this morning I have 21.  These people just don't care how much it costs me.  If one more person quits I will lose the discount on the tickets too.  They don't get it, no matter what I say to them.  So I quit... last night I decided it was time to send back the funding to the seniors secretariat with a letter explaining why.  I'm sorry if this disappoints you.  I know how much you wanted to go on these trips and that's really why I applied for funding for Cambridge and ripleys and casa loma.  The group will still go to Casa Loma but that's it.  The zoo, agha kham museum and R.O.M. are being returned.  I'm way too tired.  This has been too hard a year.  I wish you were here for me to talk to about this.  You always had the right words Ma.  You always got me through stupid shit like this.  I'm 58 now... thank goodness I'm not going to be around all that much longer.  Now I'm told I will need bypass too.  Enough already.  I hope one day to just go to bed and have that last coronary and join you and the rest of my family.