Dear Mom....... I'm lost

Dear Mom....  I know it's been a long time.  Believe me, I haven't forgotten you.  Far be it.  You are on my mind all the time.  I'm lost these days.  I'm deeply depressed, I'm constantly so tired and I miss you so much. I am so lost without you to talk to.  I am so lost without you to hug, take care of, love.  I have no one to go to for wisdom.  I don't even get any satisfaction out of my company anymore or work that goes along with it.  Nothing fills me anymore.  My home is empty without you in it.  I don't know what to do anymore with my time away from work.  Something great happens and I turn to tell you because I know how proud or happy you would be.  My depression is out of hand, as is my pain situation too.